Home is hall to blame

Standing in a wilderness, the sight becomes more and more open, the first time, the huge sky at a glance. Daheishan ridges and rivers, duck chicken Koho towering mountain, Mt sub-mountain flat, surrounded by mountains, the formation of the central plains. Sky of white, like mist, like, I can not identify it in the end is still blank Lan Margaret. Wild tree decadence, with branches Da a north wind is cold scalpel, cut the bark was one thousand one hundred rough sore bear. The reason why the tree is called the North beam wild trees, and family tree separately, because they experienced wind and rain all year round, always not grow, not long flourish, keep in villages around the sand against unbridled.Days just to put the white, the moon is like something of the past, but also like being abandoned Lightbringer night, hiding the horizon, faint Ruoruo bleak moonlight, looks insignificant. Walk in front of his uncle, my brother and I hold paper money, behind him. Today is the twelfth lunar month the twelfth lunar month twenty-first, two days after a small year, there are segments from the celebration for the day. However, New Year's festive atmosphere has been relatively concentrated, mouth smiles from the children, old people ramble from asking children return date words, silly little profit from the village (fool) Yiyi Ya Ya's singing voice, to buy fish from the butcher every household New Year's busy preparing everything is easy to see clearly. Every year around this time, I will go home Shangfen."Brother, you burn more than a few Tazi paper, RBI RBI on the road of the devil." Uncle talking.Uncle's death six months, his name was finally included in the home church book, you can enjoy for generations Xin offerings and incense of. Originally, Soul lives, the ashes can go into the graves, the name can be on the family tree, it should be good news, and I, passing the slightest desolate heart.Sleep dream, the sun just bust exposed children, put the donkey baby Qizhuomaolv, Sheng place in the grass, moving a garnet edge, fly the Mi Le chunks of soil, donkey rope tied Mi Le chunks, and put donkey baby remaining work on the simple, lying in the sun under the old sun, such as failure to eat grass donkey turning in circles, repeating the action on another place, move lattices stone, smashing Mi Le chunks, Department of rope, sun, or will malicious and lying to the sun when the shade at the shade. He tilted his legs, his mouth a group of children rank grass, are wondering, why is called a rope tied to the donkey's rope it, think hard effort bag of smoke, suddenly shines, is probably the end of the rope and halter to connect when I set up asteel ring because of it, think of this, he looked up across the blue sky, will be carefully laugh."Lianger to see tight donkey, do not spoil the crops." Uncle shoulder sickle, standing north beam hillside call me.Dream, flat as a lying son of the river water, stones into a water column, slid string ripple, I wake up. Also passing the slightest desolate heart.My whole life, eat the food, the drink to drink, Han did not care, just believe my eyes ... ...Grandpa hearty nature, for those spirits heresy, he scoffed, considered a solidly materialist, this sentence still talking about his lifetime. Grandpa seriously ill, the old man, to enlighten the second San Francisco grandmother, grandfather advised hooded teach faith, promise not to injections is not medication, six months to heal grandfather. Grandpa got the news side of the relief grandfather continued infusion, side sternly reprimanded them for not respecting the old, dingy old man old lady to leave, afraid to mention the matter.I kneel on the uncle (dialect, that is, uncle) grave, grave soil color is new. Bluestone stove top, drip of rain could have been the reason, but I can think of a septuagenarian old man's tears, somehow that is the tears hit the mud left on the printed quartzite mottled. What was going on, have to start with by the Church family worship.This custom home church worship, the old life has spread, both pregnant with the memory of the sincerity of our ancestors, but also the meaning of wealth to pray for peace, in fact, more important is to teach children and grandchildren. People pay attention to feudal superstition, fear of their own years later, the children forget to give them to burn paper money. Whether it is too grandfather, grandfather or father, always a generation a generation of caution, Do not make them put down to the wilderness and remote places, do the poor devil. Chinese New Year every case, family men and family members gathered in long branch, pick up square table, candlesticks, censers, bulk wine, pork, a variety of pastries filled with tables, incense and prayer, then ancestors home for the holiday. This concept, a direct result of patriarchal culture.Village eight miles, if someone's not a boy, will be despised by the ridicule. For example, bald tail tip son, never household types, families, and so on pole, wide range of inhumane code, so that those who suppressed.The old man home is a long family support, family court has been living in his house for. About ten years ago, began to believe in what the hooded grandmother taught, teach rules expressly provides that taboo to burn incense, under one roof, she will not allow the old man home again worship hall. The old man forced to, to get to Grandpa.Grandpa's son, daughter, Sun tai female strongly opposed to men, the souls of ancestors, after all, is not at liberty to change the place of chaos. See the old man cried day Ma Lei, grandmother too harsh, to quell public outrage, the blanket, the family moved to the backyard together.Please years mighty team, lantern man walking in front of the queue, is a beautiful job, go off road lights, lighting the way back, we were a small Lao Shu, each clamoring to mention paper lanterns. I like your years, like lantern feel like listening to two stories of the old man speak Guan. I like Chinese New Year, and bowed like to say hello uncle, uncle cheerfully send me some money. Five yuan, 10 yuan, fifteen yuan ... year after year, I shocked a small skull BU, I hope to live a hundred years old, uncle live hundred and thirty years. One hundred yuan lucky money, buy many toys.Strange to say, a series of unexpected incidents, even contrary to all expectations.One year later, my grandfather passed away suffering from liver cancer. Did a few years, Grandpa had stomach cancer. Outside the baseless rumor, juniors ripped pot, have to point finger at human grandmother still. Blame her, given a free hand, killed grandfather and uncle."I stopped all that, how would stopping, this is just great, ever since the home church of a door, we did not hospital corpuscles.""Home is where the ancestral hall there is a system, and father to son died, my grandfather was still alive put together please come home, undermining the rule of our ancestors may not be surprising if the curse."Son, wife to vent years of grievances, especially the uncle's wife and children, however, bear full responsibility for it is a septuagenarian old lady. I heard uncle was seriously ill grandmother, coupled with the children settling old accounts, a worry made high blood pressure. Copy their hands full with the grandmother aunt, overtly or covertly, in low spirits. Renyankewei, a long time, the idea has gradually shaken uncle, take for granted that he's sick grandmother making. Grandmother was heartbroken, disappointed, went to the uncle's house to escape the limelight. Although the uncle uncle unhappy family, but have to admit that his grandmother lives hard. Orphaned at four-year-old grandmother, he brought up a large Jiuye, fourth decade, large Jiuye death, to know fate of the year, only a brother's death, the ear of the years my grandfather died, I act's uncle died in, g death of all loved ones.Uncle sometimes quipped: "If a woman is a tiger, life without shun."Big guy nodded. At that time, I am thinking to myself, after looking for the object must first figure out what she is, tigress sleeping around really is terrible. Now think back, that idea really childish.Dinner time that day, the toilet sister, uncle called me to help him up, and I follow suit painted gourd, learning her sister's position paving the pillow, the fingers touching the stiff, like a book, although pillow block, exposed corner, carefully look, is the "Bible", first meal chuckle, cover their heads to teach special edition, see the description of the back, my heart shrunk, subconsciously looked north, north wall posted an embroidered red cross of white cloth."Hang sheepskin sell dog meat, sophistry cult, disastrous!" Heart cursed.Difficult to understand, what can science explain why the subject of superstition and cults to confuse, cause their loved ones enemies it? By confused, not just long with his head relatives, including lying on his sick bed dying uncle ado, the materialist.Grandpa and Grandma's a Cold War, until one night a month, Long thin star of the night.People always do nothing and vital circumstances most likely to expose the nature of, Sima Qian in the "Historical Records" is mentioned: the return of the people are poor.Just as people in unbearable pain and a high degree of shock, it will not help but exclaimed, "Oh, My goodness," heard people say "Oh, my dad ah," "Oh, my uncle, aunt, sister sub , uncle sister in law "or something. We were born and the mother, the most difficult time in the natural first thought is the mother.The last time, go home to visit her grandmother uncle, uncle home in the not to be seen by only uncle holding the hand of her grandmother, and said feebly: "Do not worry, I am not a child, I die, you must put arrangements in place." Grandmasummarized touch uncle cold hands, tears. Before he left one evening, uncle slurred speech, he intermittently, warned his brother not guilty of the family business donkey children temper; warned aunt ground to persuade his brother take care of his body; warned my father smoking, drinking less attention to health, warned me that college is the main writing is secondary and must not bided halfway so, sister, sister, uncle, aunt, a get people without exception. After last words that he kept calling "Mama", the immediate scene is gripping endless, I guess, the moment certainly forgive grandmother uncle. Dying bird Ming also sad, one is going to die his words would be good, why people want to understand everything when dying it? Perhaps because human nature is lonely. At the junction of life and death, people finally know, but his journey to this world during his lifetime and after his death against the background of the lonely. They use language to impress the most sincere in front of spectators in the hope of living forever, accompanied by devout prayer sleep.Two or three o'clock at night, uncle too late to eat breakfast, swallow the last remaining breath. When he closed his eyes a moment, crying sound to make a group.Capitalists man, the old blind man, the principal after another arrived, make arrangements for uncle's funeral."My son shout, how do you let go left, you dropped your heart Zeneng mother ah!"Hoarse voice, echoed in the quiet village, the neighborhood attracted a burst of the old yellow dog bite call. Grandmother came back, she sat on the ground Aoao crying, tears, and her eyes had dried up, bloodshot pupil, peering staring in front of the coffin.Suddenly, the grandmother of a Young Neck, syncope in the past, everyone Ku Quan, aunt pinched lips hammer back, timely Tests showed he needed her, and we carried her several siblings on the sofa. Out the window, the night Heiqu Qu, wind chill, and white streamers flapping in the wind swaying.Uncle month after the funeral, the family happens to hold the meeting, my grandmother also attended. Grandfather suggested that the twelfth lunar month, when thirty years of your afternoon, he took the hair of the (burned) genealogy, so endless troubles. Let's talk about faith hooded chatter grandmother taught how to help others, worship together at home how how ridiculous. Cite examples quite novel.Zhao was home, please, please return to a white rabbit.Laolijia for home church, New Year's Eve, wild foxes drunk show his true colors.Three bad wolf burning paper burn off eyebrows.A grandmother who shouted themselves hoarse, and grandfather, who quarrel, a junior who in the city their home, this piled bones bad things sesame indifferent, the play phone play phone, the phone of the phone, listening to them argue, feel stupid ridiculous. A variety of strong attacks, grandmother of defense collapsed, her yield, indicating, for hundreds of years of ancestral heritage system, exit the stage of family history.Is to comply with the old system? Is to abandon the old system? I am still very contradictory.The twelfth lunar month 29, sunset, I accompanied my grandmother came to the back yard, rust-colored stains iron door, far away can smell a slight smell of rust color.Walls of a Road Huozi Bachu, children can ride on top of Malaysia. Humilis hospital clusters, covering my childhood shuttle's path to draw the line leading to the museum Siemens (dialect refers to the two, around the house outside a small door) paths, rings of sheep, sheep spare piece of Grandpa take a lifetime of trail. Open the door, like a house through the ice, dark, dark. My arm went into the old house and helped my grandmother, Guotai thick layer of dust, the above clearly stamped one Maozhuacao India, it is estimated frequented by wild cats. Corner of the roof, hanging house church genealogy, painted on a red cloth spectrum pavilion, the main hall, two storeys, Diaolan engrave intricate wood, square up the Wind directions, rather than an air of dignified majesty worship, the color is hardly ever simple stereotypes.Placed in front of the hall a bronze incense burner, ears three feet, mottled green rust and blast furnace Bodhisattva group relative to shine golden, full of historical vicissitudes. Chou hall for three shrines, the ancient temple filled with cigarette strong cast mysterious atmosphere. The middle is the ancestral tablets, the following row two lines: there Guangzhao moon feat; fame seamless and grandchildren. The following is a dense grid and then, record the names of the elders passed away.Grandma pushed my hand, stroking genealogy, arms shivering. I accidentally discovered that she folds in the forehead, but also grow many years."Your uncle up, and not say someday, I will go, will sooner or later you will go up, must go, no escape."Grandma said to himself, repeating a word: no one escape.I am awe, standing a long time, finally meditation on both sides of a complete family tree couplet:Filial reverence the distances for three years, chasing away Huaikang a heart.Reverence, chase away, filial piety, family church.Lit incense all the way, blow out the flame, into the incense burner, I kneel down, a head knock to the ground.